Life Feels Like a Triangle
Currently, my life feels like a triangle where the corners are:
Work: I'm working as a freelance graphic designer. This is what I have to do to pay the rent and feed my family.
Family: Family is home, home is peace. I got married this year in January. Now, one of my top priorities is to give time to my family.
Hobbies: I have a never-ending list of things I want to do. I'd like to work on my own indie game, get into drawing, tinker with electronics, play games, read webnovels, and of course, write regularly on Bear.
The Problem
When I work extra hours to ensure the rent is covered, I feel the pull of burnout because I haven't focused on my hobbies in days.
When I actually try out some hobbies, I feel guilty for not spending the little time I have with my family.
And when I sit with my family, or go to buy groceries, the ghost of unfinished projects keeps bugging me.
What I'm Realizing
I'm realizing that I cannot be at all three corner at once. The art of living is choosing which corner to inhabit right now, and being fully there, rather than hovering in the middle and being nowhere.
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